i cant write.
I don’t feel like writing
But, right now
I just have to

This is the time to pull myself away
Away from the world were all in right now
My time to just be myself
To be free to write what I please

the truth is
the only reason im writing right now
at 4:33 in the morning
is becuz im trying to get my mind off of something else

it’s a little something
ive been struggling from for the past few years
something that is really not good for you at all
and something that will turn a lot of good people away from you

and sometimes
bring other good people closer
but in my case
ive dealt with both situations

and right now im dealing with a little something again
who ever has done what I have done in the past knows
and who hasn’t
will never sincerely understand

im going through something ive gone thru before
but for some reason
this time doesn’t feel like last time
its some how, not the same

and im not to sure
if that’s suppose to be a good thing
or maybe a bad thing
I guess we’ll find out soon enough tho

I ‘cutters’ drive to remember the feeling
The sensation, the gain
The scares, the pain
It really is unforgettable

And right now
I cant barely feel the cold metal
Of a sharp. Silver friend.
Feel it in my shaky yet ready hands.

As my whole body moves thru withdraw
As I stutter and shake
And twitch and .. remember
I remember.

~ youngin'