it's not hard to break fam, but it isn't easy to forget.

OFF THE WALL
but i never really got to say my piece, until today.


Three Years. Soon to be Three Years. Was SUPPOSED to be Three Years. We were supposed to make it. Every single one of us. Sure, we lost some and we gained some, it was all good. But then, there were definitely A LOT of tears involved. But, what I will never forget are the relationships, the smiles, the laughs and the memories. The nights that I remember, crying myself to sleep. Wondering what's going to happen the next time we see each other. I asked myself, would it ever be the same? As time went on, we eventually drifted. Drifted into nothing. We are now merely just people you see in the hallways, and at the mall. People who u s e d to be important, special, family. We couldn't, we weren't able to change what had happened in the past, but we just have to face what the future holds for us.


Days went by, then it turned to weeks, eventually months. I hadn't heard one word from anyone, until one day over the summer. WE got an email, telling us where people are NOW. While, I read that email ... I cried. I REALLY cried. It was hard because from what I thought was over, I was finally realizing that things would never be the same and I was happy at a point. Then I got that. I didn't know what to say or do, but cry. Ever since then, it was ALL I could think off. Listened to all the throwbacks, looked at all the pictures, watched all the videos. It was really all that I could think of. But I never told anyone. Then school started and I had to get focused, so at a point I forgot.


Sometime last week, I logged onto MSN and I got a message from my 'daughter' talking about this dream. This dream about us. At that point, I thought maybe there's a deeper meaning behind every dream, right? That I only hoped. The past couple of days have consisted of realtalks and hope.


You can tell me, that I should think about the future and stop living in the past. To forget it! It's over. Eventually, I'll 'learn' to move on AGAIN but for now this is all I have to say,


it's not hard to break a family, but it isn't easy to forget one


Sincerely,
lucillenaomi

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couldnt of said it any better mother ♥