so; i messed up once again.
disappointed in myself ..
i was doing so well.
holding on and keeping strong ..

this all just happened so fast.
i apologize everyone.
but prob mostly to k.c
becuz, i didnt even have the strength to tell you

you had to find out
in a half ass way.
which wasnt right,
for either of us.

i wish you didnt even have to find out
becuz i wish it didnt even happen.
i dont know what went loose in my head.
for this to happen again.

im so full of regret, and disgust.
i've let you down, along with everyone else.
yet again..
and let myself down.

but i do promise now.
that i will let you know,
so you can talk me out of this shit.
becuz, this isnt what i want. not at all.

im done with hurting people.
im done with hurting me.
will you sincerely forgive me
i really hope so, cuz i cant seem to get this outta my head.

it kills me to know that your so disappointed.
and i do understand you prob have the right to.
but, this time i really, really didnt see this coming.
this time, i cant forgive myself if you cant forgive me.

cuz if thats the case.
i've really screwed this up.
and i dont want that at all.
our friendship means to much.

im sorry. truly.
~ ronnnnay